Let me back up to yesterday, because it started there. In Chapter 4 John gets his first glimpse, through the Holy Spirit, into heaven. He sees a throne, and God is seated on the throne conducting all of the things that John is writing down. The study notes in my Bible explained that Chapter 4-5 show us "The world is not spinning out of control; the God of creation will carry out His plans...". And then today in Chapter 5 we see "in the right hand of him who sat on the throne, a scroll with writing on both sides and sealed with seven seals". A scroll, which holds - in writing - God's plans for the world. Only Christ is worthy to open the scroll, it's seven seals, and carry out the plan. When one of the elders in Heaven told John not to weep, that the Lion was worthy to open the scroll, the elder was looking at Jesus. When John looked, he saw Jesus too...but he saw Him as the Lamb. As we read earlier in Revelation, we should not mistake Jesus (as a Lamb) to be weak. He is alive in God's strength and power:
"Worthy is the Lamb, who was slain, to receive power and wealth and wisdom and strength and honor and glory and praise!"Revelation 5:12
This brings me back to the beginning, how I found conviction, in reading this book. I want to sit on the throne!!! I want to be in charge of what happens to me, of what I'm allowed to do, of what my future holds. But I am not, never was, and never will be. Well, sometimes that just sucks, and makes me want to throw a fit. I actually started to yesterday - I was sitting on my bed pouting...then I saw my Bible and, since I didn't do my reading yet, I opened up Chapter 4 and when I read in the study notes "The world is not spinning out of control; the God of creation will carry out His plans..." it was like God was sitting next to me saying "Hey kid, I got this!".
I'd be willing to bet there's a few others out there who can relate...you get an idea of how things are supposed to go, what would be ideal for you, and then it goes the complete opposite direction. Maybe you, like me, need to be reminded of Who is on the throne.
OH MAN...God's timing is always perfect!! When I wrote this back on the 7th I had no idea what God had planned for me. Last week I was upset because Nate's surgery wasn't able to be scheduled until the end of February, and even though I could be on a waiting list to get in sooner the nurse said I was about 20 people deep in line. So I took it as a big NO, just wait till February. Today, I received a call that they can get him in on Dec. 23rd because of a cancellation! So, by trusting in His timing, God blessed us with so much more than I ever imagined. We have better insurance now than we will next year, there's less time for ear infections to develop, we get the Dr. we wanted, and his recovery will be during winter break so he won't miss tons of school. I am seriously jumping out of my skin here...SO blessed to realize God's working in my life in such a real way.
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